Okay! I'm posting my fanfic here. I'll be adding more once and a while, because I'm getting bored while waiting for my other fan fic to be approved in the Main Fan Fictions sections. This is about the relationship between Lily and James, so if you haven't read DH don't read this, unless you want it to be spoiled!

Chapter 1
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A 16 year old girl ran her fingers through her beautiful red hair as she looked through the piles of books she had made just hours before. She counted them over and over again, making sure everything was there, and started placing them into her trunk. She reached behind, beside, and in front of her to store everything she needed for school. Then when she tried to place her bag of quills and parchements she ran out of room and decided to repack everything.
'No need' suddenly said a man's voice.
Lily turned around and there stood her father's cousin, Harry Evans.
'Harry! What do you mean? I was just going to unpack my things-'
'I said no need, Lily' said Harry, smiling. He waved his wand, but nothing happened except a soft whoosh echoing from the bottom of the trunk.
'Er... What is it?' asked Lily, uncertain.
Harry beamed at the trunk and bent over to look at it.
'Go on' he said. 'Put your hand in it, go on.'
Lily uncertainly bent over and slowly lowered her arm into the piles of books. To her surprise it was a few more centimetres before she was able to reach them.
'Harry! The- it's bigger... I can fit my stuff! Gosh, thank you!' she said, looking at her father's cousin.
'Welcome' he replied, getting up and leaving the room.
Lily smiled at the empty doorframe and started packing once again.

The last shouts and goodbyes were drowned in the noise when the train started moving. Hands were separated as the students were pulled back into the train and the windows were closed. Everyone sat down and chose their compartments.
Lily had to sit with James, Remus and Sirius, Peter seemed to be absent.
'Evans! Helloooo!' said James.
Lily ignored him and sat down facing him, beside Remus, and rested her head on her hand, looking out the window.
'Seen Snivellus lately?' asked Sirius, smirking.
Lily looked at him for a moment, surprised, but mumbled 'no' before turning back to the foggy landscape. She felt her stomach tighten and her heart burn, but she gulped back the tears and forced herself to talk, brusquely changing the subject.
'So, Sirius... how's it going with Lacy?' she asked, looking in his direction but not into his eyes.
He hesitated for a moment and answered.
'Er... okay. She's just sort of... cheesy' he said.
James chuckled and hid his face behind the magazine he was half-reading.
'What?' said Lily, confused.
'Well, she sent me this necklace during the summer that said My Sweetheart on it.' Lily frowned. ' Then she sent me this picture of us two and told me she drew it, but I don't think she did' Sirius finished.
'Why, I never knew she was an artist...'
'Oh, she's not' said James, laughing. 'We think he troll sister drew it, actually.'
Lily smiled as Sirius punched James's arm.
'What about you, James?' said Lily, but the next second she knew she had made a grave mistake.
'Oh, er... not much has happended to me' he said, looking down and hiding once again behind his magazine.

Lily sort of liked James, but had mixed and confused feelings. She hated him for treating her and Severus this way, but the second she thought that she realized she liked James and wanted to be his friend, or perhaps more than friend. She found he was becoming nicer as she became closer and more friendly to him, and yet she dreamt of Severus every night and hated herself for letting him go, trying to convince herself it was the best thing to do.

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Chapter 2
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Suddenly she was ripped away from her thoughts by a shake and a loud noise. She look outside, pressing her nose and her fingers to the window, and realize they had arrived at Hogwarts. She stood up and reached for the small compartment above her, but James's hands got there before hers.
Lily looked up at him, seeing as he was slightly taller than her, and smiled faintly.
'Thank you' she said, taking her trunk and pulling it close to her.
She paused for a moment, reflecting on her own feelings, but gave up on it and followed the others out.

The rain fell from the ceiling for a few meters down, but soon faded away in thin air, right above the heads of the students and staff in the Great Hall.
A thick fog filled the room, but it's enchantement permitted to see clearly through it.
'Welcome back, everyone' suddenly said a thick but light-hearted voice.

All heads turned to Dumbledore, but Lily and James were in a deep conversation and did not notice him speaking
'...I don't hate you!'
'You act like it' replied James blankly.
'I do not!' Lily moaned softly.
'You don't take much interest in me and you act like you're mad all the time.'
'Well... I often am! And I don't not take any interest in you, what do you mean?'
'Well, you won't go out with me' James said, looking away.
'That doesn't mean I hate you!' Besides, you haven't asked me out in a long time!' she hissed, getting to her feet as James sat there bamboozled, but with an air of triumph.
'...and thank you for giving my speech all your attention' finished Dumbledore, making Lily and James blush as they felt his heavy gaze upon them.
Lily walked away so quickly that James didn't notice her leaving. He got himself up and joined Sirius as they slowly headed up to the common room, talking about the night's events.

Lily ran up to the common room and practically shouted the password at the Fat Lady's portrait. It swung open, letting Lily through. She was furious, furious that James was unable to see she was trying to be friends with him but he was acting like a jerk. He was the one who liked her, why couldn't he at least give himself a chance? Oh, he was going to regret this!' Lily thought, pulling her socks off at last and reaching for her dressing robes. The next time he would ask her out she would shout at him all the wrong things he had done and why she wouldn't go out with him. He was being such an idiot, failing to see her attempts to be friendlier, acting like he didn't care any more... what if he didn't?
Lily pulled her dressing robes on over her pyjamas as headed out the room.

Lily was alone in the common room. She pulled a box out of a cupboard near the door and took out a sachet of calming tea, as she always did on weekend before bed. 'Accio teacup' she said, and a second later she dropped the bag into the newly arrived teacup.
'Augamenti' she repeated softly, letting the water pour slowly.
She then warmed it with a heating spell. Dipping a finger in the tea she tested the heat and quickly brought her hand to her mouth, blowing on it to cool down the burning feel.
Then she waited. Magic is so easy, it's so hard to resist using it at home. Accio teacup! That's all it takes!' she thought.
A second later she took that back, realizing she had been thinking out loud.

A whooshing sound warned Lily of the teacup that was flying towards her, but her reflexes were bad and she managed to dodge it instead of catching it. It crashed onto the wall on the right of the portrait door, and it's shattered remains slid shining onto the floor.

Lily sighed, frowing, and bent down to clean the mess. She was rather out of her mind tonight and did not think of using magicto fix the shattered teacup. She started to pick up the pieces one by one, softly depositing them into her hand.
Then it happened very quickly. The portrait swung open and in came Sirius, narrowely missing Lily, but James unfortunately wasn't as lucky and stepped right onto her hand over the porcelain remains, one of which pierced the skin of her hand and left a deep wound in her palm.
'JAMES!' she shouted in fury, tossing the bloody fragment and shaking her hand in pain.
'...really like her...Lily! OH MY GOSH, I am so sorry!' he said, realizing she was there and he had just caused her eyes to water from the pain.
He took her hand as Sirius cleaned up the mess and helped her up. They walked to the couch, scratch-free hand in injured hand, and sat down. James summoned a thin cloth and wrapped it softly around Lily's hand, frowning at the cut he had caused.

'I am really, really sorry' repeated James, finishing his task of wrapping Lily's hand in a bandage.
'It's- It's ok... No problem' replied Lily, looking at him.
He let her go and smiled at her. She got to her feet, looked around and smiled at both again.
'It's fine, thanks for helping me. I'm just going to go off to bed, now' she said, waving and rushing back up to the girls' dormitory.

Lily took her dressing robes off and hopped on the cold stone floor before pushing back the bedsheets and jumping into bed. She lay there for a moment, pulling back the bedsheets onto her body, thinking of James. Who was it he really liked? Was it still Lily? Did he like her, or had he been saying he didn't really like her? But Lily only had time to hope to get the answers before falling into a deep, dreamy sleep.

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Chapter 3
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The leaves were swept in the air, causing a ripple of warm color. The birds sang, the butterflies graced majestically in the air. The Marauders' leaders walked tall and proud down the castle path as students looked at the passing group. One of these students was Lily, who snapped her book shut and shoved it onto her friend's lap. The scene swivled and swirled and then Lily was standing next to James, watching him intimidate Severus.
'Stop it!' she shouted.
James smirked and his mouth moved but out came no sound, and then-
'...Mudblood' said Severus, sadness crossing his angry features.
The scene rippled again and Lily was leaning against the wall out of the dormitory.
'Sorry'
'I'm not interested'
'Sorry...sorry...sorry' said Severus's voice, echoing in Lily's conciousness.
'No...no, Severus... No, no' she whispered.
And with a jerk of her head she was awake, sitting up in her bed and wiping her sweat with her sleeve. She closed her eyes and let out a soft heartbroken moan, curling up in her bed and crying silently. The pain of losing her best friend was unexplicable, losing Severus, who had been loyal to her for all these years, he who spied on her and Petunia when she was only 10, Severus, the one who had after all introduced her to the world of magic, Severus, her best friend... Numerous thick tears rolled down Lily's cheeks onto her wet pillow like a thousand drops of rain, each one falling from the cloud of guilt and sadness that hovered over Lily day and night.

A month had passed. Lily and James talked less than before, the ambiance being quite awkward when they were together, but otherwise things were well.
It was early in the morning, but James and Sirius were in Potions Class. The excuse of the teacher was their lack of concentration and too much talking.
James lazily looked up at the board, leaning back in his chair.
'I don't get this babbling' he said. 'You?'
'Not really. But it says to put the Firefly Essence on the chopped Merryhop legs.' answered Sirius, frowning at his best friend's cauldron.
'I didn't do that yet' said James, reaching for his chopped legs and Essence bottle.
A loud crash at the window interrupted their work. James and Sirius turned their heads quickly, to find a bottled message in the mess on the teacher's desk. James reached for it, but the Potions Master got it first, throwing him a dirty look.
'Don't touch that!' he said, unrolling the parchement. 'That Dumbledore... Told him not to use a bottle.'
The teacher read the message several times and cleared his throat.
'James Potter, Dumbledore would like to see you at his office.' James looked at Sirius, confused. 'Now!' hissed the Potions Master.
James got to his feet and muttered to Sirius. 'See you later.'

A tall stone gargoyle stood magestically upon the stairway center.
James realized he didn't know the password. He paused for a moment and decided to guess.
'Er... I was asked to come, Dumbledore's permission...' he said, unsure.
This is stupid, he thought. But to his surprise, the stairway was revealed and James climbed up the steps.
When he arrived at the top he knocked on the great dark wooden door. It opened itself, revealing Dumbledore sitting at his desk, peering at him over his half-moon spectacles. But James wasn't the only guest. Lily smiled at him from over at her chair and looked down at her feet.
'Sit down' said Dumbledore's warm voice.
James obeyed at sat on the chair next to Lily.
'I have summoned you both here because I trust your sense of organization' he said, looking at Lily, 'and your imagination' he added, turning to James.
Lily spoke first.
'What do you need us for, Professor?' she asked.
'I have decided with the other staff that it is time for our student to receive a special treat, since they haven't in a long time.
'I think I can trust you in organizing this year's Christmas Ball?' asked Dumbledore, smiling.
'Oh, yes! Of course you can!' beamed Lily.
'What do we have to do?' asked James, speaking for the first time.
'Oh, not much' merely said the Headmaster. 'I need you to chose the decoration of the Great Hall, as well as inform the rest of the students of this event. Will you do it?'
'Definitely!' answered both Lily and James, smiling at eachother.
Dumbledore waved his arm towards the door and together James and Lily stood up and walked in the direction indicated, James being first at heading down.
'Oh and Evans, I suggest you go with the first who asks' added Dumbledore, winking and nodding towards the spot James stood a moment before.
Lily blushed and quickly followed him down, her mind racing with ideas.

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Chapter 4
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Lily walked quickly in the hallway, avoiding hitting people, frequently dodging coming students who weren't paying attention to where they were going. She came to a halt at the steps, spotted him and went down. She jogged through the courtyard, covering her eyes from the sun with her arm.
'James!' she said loudly.
He spun on the spot and found Lily's eyes. She smiled at him.
'Oh, Lily... Hey' he said, pulling his bag onto his back. 'So... What can I do for you?'
'Um... Help?' said Lily. 'James, the Christmas Ball is in two days! We need to make the final adjustments and hand it to Dumbledore!'
James looked around, perhaps for a friend of his, and sighed.
'Yeah, let's go. You're right' he said, starting to walk behind Lily.

As they were walking, quite slowly, but walking, James spoke.
'Listen, um... Do you have anyone? You know, for the Ball?'
'I... I- what?' said Lily, stopping in the stairs and looking at James.
'Well, I mean... If you want to go to the ball with me, I- I'm free...' repeated James.
'Oh!' said Lily, understanding. 'Oh, er... Well, James, I- I'm sorry, but... Chris Robbinson already asked me.

James's face was quickly drained of it's color, but only for a moment before it turned a pinkish shade.
'Oh, er... That's- That's fine. I'll, er... yeah' he muttered.
He took a deep breath and went on up the stairs, quickly enough to be meters ahead of Lily. She looked up at him, tilting her head sideways and asking herself if she regretted this. She lost train of her thoughts as her eyes watered and she looked down at her feet as they once again started climbing the staircase.

The common room was awkwardly silent, apart from the sound of their quills running up and down the parchement. Lily glanced over at James, frowning, but as he raised his eyes off his parchement she quickly got back to her work.
Several minutes past till Lily put her quill down and sat back in her chair. After a few seconds looking at James, she noticed he wasn't really doing anything, only pressing the tip of his plume onto the same spot of his paper, making a dark circle.
Lily sighed and cleared her throat once, but James only sat straighter, not giving up his ink spot. Twice, and he jumped, dropping his quill and looking at Lily, seemingly surprised.
'Er... James, I er... Well, here's what I've got' she said, handing him her page.
His eyes rolled up and down the picture, apparently paying attention to every detail.
'That's- That's really nice. Er, yeah. I like it' he said, sending the paper floating and falling in front of Lily. She looked at it and smiled till it hit the table, then looked back at James, tilting her head to the side. 'What've you got?'
James looked left and right, then grabbed his list in front of him and gave it to Lily. She read it quickly and put it down at the center of the table.
'Very nice. I think Dumbledore will be very pleased. We've got everything done, hope he'll be happy...' she said, seemingly in between talking to herself and James.
'So... How 'bout I take it to Dumbledore tomorrow' suggested James, breaking the silence.
'Yeah, sure!' said Lily, smiling and getting to her feet.
She waved at James and murmured a soft 'Goodnight' before heading to the girl's dormitory.

It was the day. It had finally arrived, the Christmas Ball. Everyone was to go to the Great Hall at 7h00 pm. Lily hadn't heard from James, she was anxious to know what was going on. The Ball was tonight, everything had to be ready! She decided to go find him.
'Sirius! SIRIUS!' she shouted across the hall.
Students stared and moved out of the way as Lily ran to James's friend.
'Lily!' said Sirius, smiling and snapping his book shut, shoving it on the bench. 'What' he said 'can I do for you?'
'Um... tell me where James is?' asked Lily, raising her eyebrows.
'Ohhhh, I see...' replied Sirius, smirking. 'Well, well... You'll have to ask Remus' he added, rather loudly.
Remus, who was out in the courtyard a few meters away, looked up, surprised, taking his eyes off a piece of parchment.
'Remus, is James up to no good?' asked Sirius, winking to him and turning away to some classmates.
Lily ran through the courtyard, across some people and up to Lupin.
'Scuse me.... Sorry, Hey... Oh, Remus! Remus!' said Lily, tripping over some branches.
Remus laughed and smiled at Lily, using his wand to tap the piece of paper he had been holding.
'So, looking for James, I hear?' he said.
'Yeah, er- you know where I could find him?' she asked, frowing and looking around her.
'Oh, sure! Just gimme a sec-' Lupin said, turning around.
He bent down over something Lily could not see, but as she tried to see what he was doing he turned back to face her again.
'Oh! Sooo... are you gonna tell me?'
'Yeah, yeah. Um, he said something about common room, Ball... I believe he was organizing it with you?' Remus said, shrugging.

Lily nodded at Remus and thanked him. She turned around and hurried to the staircases.
'Hippogriff' Lily said, and the portrait swung open as she stepped in.
She looked around. James was not there. She hurried up to the dormitory and found James on the ground looking through a pile of things.
'James!' moaned Lily.
He jumped at her words and stood up, surprised. He flattened his hair with his hand and looked around, embarassed.
'James!' Lily repeated. 'You didn't lose the papers, did you?'
He raised his shoulders and his eyebrows, looking sorry.
'Whatever' she said. 'Accio ball plans' she added, waving the wand she had just taken out.
Nothing happened.
'Wow, er... Where exactly did you put them?' she asked, looking at James weirdly, mesmerized.

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Chapter 5
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James sunk lower in his shell, timidly raising his shoulders.
'Look, Lily... I didn't mean to lose them... I just wanted to- Look,I didn't want to upset you! I always do everything wrong, and I messed up again!'
Lily took a step towards him, and now she was facing him and standing inches from him.
'It's okay. Really, don't worry about it' she said.
James smiled, relaxing his body at the relief of being forgiven.

Lily smiled sweetly and slightly lifted her chin, looking down at him.
He half-smiled back. She was so close he could feel her breath on his face, her warm, soft, sugary breath... He leaned forward, tiliting his head.
She lowered her head and searched his eyes mysteriously. After seconds she leaned in too.
Their lips were meeting, still slightly apart. James thought for a moment of what was going to happen from now on, but Lily did not wonder. As he was about to kiss her, he felt her breathe more heavily on his face and she quieyly said a few words.
'You're an idiot.'
The words hit James with such force that he did not bother move. He stood there, about to kiss his Lily that was not there, staring at the floor blankly. He avoided looking at her as she walked away in a storm of emotional questioning, leaving behind her a trail of happy memories. She had just dissed James, let him down, abandonned him. He stood alone now in the common room, his mind racing with anger and confusion.

Lily sat curled in the corner of the halls, her head in her knees. She grunted loudly, scaring first years that were walking by. They avoided her angry gaze as they quickly walked away from her, whispering. Lily did not care. What was going with her? She had just let James down, and yet she did not even know why! She tilted her head against the stone walls and looked at the raining sky out the stainglassed window. She took a deep breath and pushed herself up on her feet. She stretched discreetly and started walking, running her hand through her hair to get it out of her lovely face. She turned the corner and stopped, looking around. A blond girl waved at her; she responded.
'Hey, Alice!'
Then she spotted them. A group of guys were standing and sitting against the windows in the corner, laughing and talking in their manly voices. She half-walked, half-ran towards them, pulling one out by the sleeve.
'Chris' she said, gesturing him to come.
'Yeah?' he asked carelessly, shrugging lightly.
'I'm not going to the dance with you' said Lily.
'What?'
'You heard me' she said, smiling and waving at Chris's friends, who were laughing at him stupidly.
Lily looked back and noticed he was now shrugging and laughing too, shaking it off carelessly.
'What a jerk' Lily thought, rolling her eyes and continuing her way.

James sat on the couch of the common room, his face resting in his hands. Around him stood and sat his best friends, all except Wormtail, who was sick. Sirius had his arm around his best mate, and Remus were kneeling in front of him, trying to get it all out of him.
'I just- don't- understand...' said James, bringing his head up and looking at the marauders.
'Don't worry about it' said Remus. 'I mean, she's a girl, they're all complicated. But you'll end up figuring it all out.'
'Yeah, I guess... But why? Why can't she just let me... Maybe I went to far... I'm just an idiot. No duh she doesn't want me. I mean, who would? Look at me!' said James, starting to lose his temper.
Sirius and Remus looked away, not knowing what to say.
'LOOK AT ME!' he shouted again, angry with himself.
And now the two marauders responded, looked at him, but had an urge to turn away once again. Who was this? Why were they afraid of James? James, who always had a smile on his face, James, who was now angry with the world because of love... Never they had thought that love would get in his way. At last Sirius attempted to speak:
'Prongs, don't worry about her' he said in a rare timid voice. 'She- she's just a girl...'
'Just a girl?' James shouted. 'Just a girl?'
He turned around, not caring about what his friends were saying in his back. He was angry with the world, yet he was not, he was the only idiot. He had screwed up so many times, it was all his fault. She could go with Chris to the Christmas Ball, he did not care. He was a man, he could easily find another date. But who? It was true, what girl would want him? He was an idiot that always ruined things, a man not worth dating. But it was the only way. James set off in a useless hurry, missing steps as he went down early for dinner.

Only a few people were in the Great Hall, talking or studying. James looked around, desperate for the one he was looking for. Alas he spotted her, lucky. He jogged and walked towards her and pressed his hands on her shoulders, trying to look as normal as possible.
'Hey, Melissa' he said, causing her to jump at the sight of him.
'Oh, James! Hello' she said, smiling and pushing her long blonde hair behind her.
'I...' he started, hesitating. '...wanted to ask you if you wanted to go to the Christmas Ball with me' he ended, breathing out.
Melissa's lovely face turned to a frown.
'But... didn't you ask Lily Evans?' she said.
'No' he lied.
Her face became bright and happy once again and she looked back at James, stretching her hands out in front of her as if she was reaching out for him.
'Oh, alright then! I'll see you tonight!' she replied, batting her eyelashes in a flirty smile.

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Chapter 6
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Lily pulled herself up on the windowsill of the small hall. Occasionally some students would go by and say hi, or they'd just walk away ignoring her. She had just seen James ask Melissa out. What did this mean? Did he not like her anymore? Had she gone so far that he had given up on her? Maybe she had been a little to hard at playing that game. But it was not a game! Lily liked him very much now, more then she had ever dreamed. And there he was, already asking another girl! What was he up to? Oh, it was not over. Lily was going to get him back whatever, it took.

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James stopped when he reached the bottom of the second last flight of stairs, which ended at the corner. Just stairs and steps ahead was the Great Hall, waiting for him and Melissa. He had not idea how the night would go, but he was looking forward to enjoying it.

He tightened the bow and made a grooming gesture on his dressing robes, taking a deep breath. Then he turned the corner and headed down the last flight of stairs, as elegantly as possible. He winced at the sound of Sirius and Remus's whistling, but only glared at them for a second. He turned around to face Melissa, who was prettier than ever. Her long blond hair was even more silky, and her makeup made her look elegant in her long black dress. She held a long veil of the same color that hung in her exposed back. James smiled at her.
'Hey' she said, simply radiant.
'Hey! You look great.'
'Thanks!' she replied, beaming.
But the rest of her words drowned in the noise. James had been distracted by a red glow he had seen in the corner of his eye. He quickly turned to look at what he realised to be Lily, who had her head tilted to the side and her chin up in the air, making her look like a satisfied spoiled young girl.
James whispered a silent 'wow'. Melissa was a few feet away, talking to some friends who had just arrived. Lily was tall and beautiful, wearing a long, simple green dress. She looked stunning. The thin green material that made the short sleeves feel like a drape on her shoulders, while the light makeup she was wearing made her look simply beautiful and natural. Her silky smooth red hair fell softly on her shoulders in big curls, and the whole outfit was perfectly accessoried by long, gold, dangling earings. She was the most beautiful she had ever been, James thought, and she did not look at all like a girl who had possibly cried in the previous hours. James suddenly remembered with a pang that he had forgotten about the lost papers, and swore silently. Lily, the responsible Lily, had probably known he would do this and had surely taken care of everything. James looked at her left, where stood a handsome young man. James suddenly realised why he had been seen talking to Lily earlier. Surely he had asked Lily to go to the Ball with him. At these thoughts James felt a violent urge to hit him and yell at him to get away from Lily, but he resisted and pulled himslef away fromm that by walking back to go meet Melissa in the Great Hall. As he turned around, he could of sworn his eyes met the strongly beautfil green of Lily's, glaring at him sadly.

James linked arms with Melissa. She turned around and smiled when she saw it was James.
'Shall I escort you to the Ballroom?' he asked sophisticatedly.
Melissa laughed.
'You may' she said between two giggles.
They walked towards the two grand doors and entered the Great Hall. James's stomach flipped. It was exactly like Lily's picture: icy, cold, sparkling, dazzling, beautiful...

Statue of ice were lined up against the walls, between benches and chairs and tables of the same look. The walls were white and covered in snow, as well as some areas of the floor. James looked up. The stars were there, and so was the dark, lovely sky, and the snow. All of Lily's creation, James thought, leading Melissa to a table. She sat down and smiled at him.
'I'll go get some drinks' he said.
He walked quite fast. Lily- where was she? Probably crying in a corner because I'm not with her... she's so jealous, he thought. Then he froze. Jealous... that was why he had invited Melissa! He realized. All of this, this... game, they were simply making eachother jealous! James felt his heart drop as the guilt started to overpower him. But no, he wouldn't go talk to her. He had to get the drinks.

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I sat in between Alice and Mary. I laughed.
'Did he really say that?' I'd be ashamed of myself!' I said, still laughing.
'Yeah, me too' said Alice, smiling.
'No really! He did! He was all like: Who do you think you are, my boss? It was hilarious. He's a sweet guy, but you know... I mean, his boss? Whaaat a come back!' Mary added, laughing at her own sarcastic tone.
I smiled and took another sip of my Pumpkin Fizz.

I nearly choked on it, spitting it out in front of me. My friends saw me and laughed even harder, seemingly out of their minds. I took the napkin on the table behind us and cleaned my mouth.
'Scourgify' I muttered, pointing my wand at myself.
Why had I embarassed myself like that? I was nearly ashamed to say it, but it was because I'd just seen James. He was standing in front of the drink table, looking around him uncertainly. He seemed to be hesitating on taking a drink or not, just stupidly standing there, taking and replacing the goblets. He was seriously out of his mind.
I decided to go talk to him. He'd asked another girl! The only explaination for this was that he was making me jealous. I was determined, I knew he still liked me. I was not an idiot, I was not too late. Why hadn't I noticed my feelings for him before? Was it because I now felt free without Severus? No, it couldn't... Or had I simply always loved James, but not seen it? Love can make us blind...

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James sighed, noticing what an idiot he was making of himself, picking up the goblets and putting them back where the were. He looked around, making sure that nobody had seen him. He felt some odd emotion, a mix of guilt and anger at himself for not talking to Lily, but he was still not feeling like talking to her. How to get rid of this feeling? Without thinking, James let it out on the first person he saw.
'Hey, Snivellus' he said, looking at him from head to toe. 'Nice dress robes.'
Severus didn't reply, looking down at his feet and ignoring James.
'I said hi' added James, smirking pointlessly. 'Sooo, where's your little girlfriend?'
Snape looked up at him this time, his eyes asking what girlfriend James was talking about.
'Lily' James said rather uncomfortably, but looking satisfied. 'Where is she?' he said, forcing a laugh through his dry throat.
Snape's eyes suddenly darkened, as if he was ready to attack James, but as he was opening his mouth he closed it again, looking shocked. James ignored this, not paying attention to Severus's expressions, focusing on keeping himself steady.
'Is she mad at you? Did she dump you for a better man? Someone like me, perhaps? Oh no, Snivellus. It doesn't take much to be better than you, does it?'
But these words were his last, as Severus's eyes opened wide and he walked away, looking afraid and somewhat angry. James turned around, only to recieve a sharp blow on the side of his face. He gasped, holding his cheek and looking at Lily wordlessly, not knowing what to say.
'How could you? How could you ever,' she hissed loudly 'ever, say that to anyone. Who in the world would dump their best friend for trash like you?' she said loudly, although no one really payed attention to this.
She looked at James, disappointed, and as her eyes filled with tears she stalked away in a sob. James called after her, but only in a whisper she could not hear.
'Lily'
He pushed a goblet off the table violently to vent his anger and stormed away heavily in the crowd after Lily.

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I accelerated, and finally ran towards the door as heavier tears started running down my face. I ran out of the Great Hall, away from everyone, and shut the door behind me as I entered the first classroom I saw.
I collapsed against the wall, sobbing loudly. I cried and cried, tried to empty myself, but the tears I had been holding back for so long were running like a neverending river. My moans of sadness echoed in the room as I slid down the cold stone wall, finally letting myself fall onto the floor. I put my hands in my face, with no reason, like a shield from the world, like if I was trying to hide my wet face. I wiped my eyes with my hand, knowing my makeup was running and I certainly didn't look very attractive. I took a deep breath looked around, but seconds later I was not calm anymore and I was crying quite loudly again, barely breathing between sobs, my eyes running. I turned around, curled up in a ball against the wall. My dress was a little bit wet, as well as my hair. I cried silently for a few moments, calming myself down. This ball was a disaster for me, it was one ruined night. I quickly turned around at the sudden sound of an opening door. I realized it was the one of the classroom I was in. I looked at the shadow against the wall, wondering who it was. Then I stood up, faster than a light bolt. James stood in front of me, looking at me with a shocked expression, like he wasn't expecting to find soaked Lily in the room he was looking for her in. He sighed and started walking towards me, and I sat down against the wall again.
Just a moment later, as I had expected, James sat next to me. He looked at me, quite rudely but sweetly and sadly, and did not stop. I looked at him back, and he spoke.
'I'm so sorry' he said in a broken voice.
I felt the tears coming back, but I did not gulp them back. I collapsed in James's arms and cried a little bit, wetting his shirt. He put his arms around me and pulled me away from him.
'I never meant to do anything wrong... I just wanted you...' he sighed 'so much...'
I did not smile at him, but whispered:
'Jerk. Idiot. Can't you ever be nice? Like you're being now?' I said, confused with my own words.
He looked at me with a questionning look, trying to figure out my true intentions.
'Well... do you hate me or not?' he asked.
'I tried to make you jealous' I said, ignoring his question.
'So did I' he said.
'I waited too long'
'I was too early'
'I was an idiot'
'So was I' he said.
I looked at him sadly, and he imitated me.
'Can we start over?' I asked, taking his hand. 'Can you be a better person, if I go out with you?'
'You'll go out with me?' James asked, surprised.
I smiled and got up, pulling him to his feet with me. We walked silently back to the hall, and outside, where we continued past some students and under the arches, still wordlessly. We came to a halt at the last arch, which was decorated with flowers and vines. I stood in front of him and looked in his eyes, he smiled back. I knew from his look he was going to be a better person, he was going to keep a promise. He truly loved me, I knew it.
'I promise' he said.
I took his hands and moved closer to him, feeling the cold of his breath on my face. The snow fell on us silently in the night, but this was real, not a spell or a dream. It was magic, real magic.
I light sound of tiny bells came from upon our heads. I looked up, and so did James, and what we saw were small vines growing fast under the arch, the red mixing in with the green and the sparkles. It was the first time I saw mistletoe closely, and it was actually beautiful.
I looked down, laughing softly, and looked back at James. He smiled at me, unsure, and placed his hand in my hair, the other on my waist. I put my arms around his shoulders, and raised myself on my toes. He leaned in and our lips met, my stomach flipped. I kissed him softly, and he kissed me beautifully. Our figures stayed entwined for a moment that I wished would last eternity, but I knew that there would be more, we had a lifetime ahead of us. Not days, not years, not centuries. A lifetime. - ♥

I stood in Defence Against The Dark Arts class, ready. I looked at Severus, whom I had been teamed up with by the teacher. He was not looking at me in the eyes, but his wand was shaking.
'Go' I said flatly.
He looked up, confident. His wand shook some more, and seconds later a red jet flew accross the room and struck me in the chest, and I fell back with a thud, without defending myself. Severus's footsteps came towards me, and he looked down at me curiously. I looked back at him and whispered:
'I deserved it.'
He smiled for the first time in months, and held his hand out. I grabbed it, smiling, and pulled myself up.
'Ready?' he asked.
'Ready' I answered, my face illuminated with joy and relief of being forgiven for not forgiving. - ♥

The End

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