This is a song fic about Lily when she realizes that she loves James
The song is by Missy Higgins ~ Where I stood
Oh ya, I unfortunately do not own any of the characters that has been mentioned in any of the 7 Harry Potter books
“Lilly tell me you broke up with James?” Sarah asked me
“Yes I did but -”
“But nothing. It’s like you said he probably just kept on asking for the chase. He’ll probably brake up with you by next week right?”
“I suppose…”
I don't know what I've done
Or if I like what I've begun
But something told me to run
And honey you know me it's all or none
What was I thinking? I know that James won’t brake up with me, a guy doesn’t ask you out every day, five times a day, for six years without really liking you. Does he? Why did I listen to Sarah? She just wants him to be free again.
There were sounds in my head
Little voices whispering
That I should go and this should end
Oh and I found myself listening
I hate this feeling that I shouldn’t trust Sarah, she’s been my friend for six years. And liked James for six years. But the past two weeks with him has been great and he’s been kind and loving and caring and I think I might even love him.
'Cos I don’t know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood
“Lilly! Can I talk to you for just a sec?”
“Sure, what do you want?”
“Do you really not want to see me anymore?”
“It’s hard not to see you, we’re in the same classes we have duties together…”
“I meant as a couple” he said irritably
“No it’s just I’m scared that you’ll hurt me and …” I couldn’t finish my sentence, I turned and ran
See I thought love was black and white
That it was wrong or it was right
But you ain't leaving without a fight
And I think I am just as torn inside
That’s what’s wrong with me I don’t see things in techni-color. A thing is either right or wrong with me Why can’t there be a
in-between with me? Oh I wish I could talk with James and tell him all these fears I have. I wish I can tell him that I don’t want him to be with any other girl than me.
'Cos I dont know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood
And I don’t know if I should tell him that he might be the only guy I ever truly love cause he won’t speak to me after what I said. What if I told him how I feel? What if I just swallowed my pride and went up to him and say what I really feel?
And I won't be far from where you are if ever you should call
You meant more to me than anyone I ever loved at all
But you taught me how to trust myself and so I say to you
This is what I have to do
“You said you had to talk to me? I thought you were done talking to me?”
“So did I but I’m not. James there is a lot I have to tell you, things I should have told you before we broke up so here I go and please don’t interrupt?”
“I won’t so tell me” he said and sat down on the one armchair
“I broke up with you cause I was scared that you’ll hurt me, and I know now that you won’t. Those two weeks that we dated was really great, it’s like you where a totally different person from what I knew and despised for six years. I thought that if I hide my feelings to you it would go away, eventually, but they just grew stronger, and now I can’t keep it from you anymore. James I love you and I don’t want to see you with anybody else but me and if you hurt me then you hurt me at least I will know that finally saw something in techni-color.”
“You don’t have to worry that you’ll get hurt cause I love you from now till death. My beautiful techni-colored girl”
'Cos I dont know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood
Oh, she who dares to stand where I stood
“Can I seal that with a kiss?” I finally asked
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