I wanted to finish the whole thing before I posted any, because I want to be able to post really regularly- at least once a week.
I was debating whether or not to put this in the Harry Potter section, or Other Adults section, but seen as Severus is my favourite and he does play a huge part in the story it's going here
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Disclaimer: Credit for the creating of the HP-verse and its wonderful characters goes to Ms. Jk Rowling. I do not intend to make money from her creations.. just to enjoy them!
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CHAPTER 1- Harry
Harry sat with his eyes closed, letting the soft breeze caress his skin. His hair tangled in his eyelashes and he let out a deep sigh. He leant against the rough bark of a tree, savouring its coarseness beneath his skin, longing to feel real. It had been too long since he had felt this free. He lifted his hand to his scar. Yet at the same time, so trapped. The scar that had marked him for nineteen years. It was faded and dull. The bond was broken. It was just a scar. He let out another sigh. The battle had ended two years ago, the war had ended today. The mess that had been left behind, the mess that he had to clear up, he’d done it.
The last death eater had been captured. He wasn’t even a powerful wizard, but he knew how to hide, and after months of searching they had discovered him in the early hours of this morning. He was killed instantly. The ministry couldn’t afford to give death eaters the luxury of a trial anymore, the death eaters abused it, shout obscenities at the wizengamot until the dementors grew tireless and the trial had to be moved along. Dementors. They were gone too. Not dead, vanished. Into the north, across the ocean. Azkaban was closed for refurbishment, one might say. New guards, new charms, new policies.
Harry opened his eyes and stared out across the lake. It was hard to believe that only a few years ago he had been here, laughing, with them… he closed his eyes again, the lines in his brow deepening, pain etched into his face. Gone, Everybody. His Mother, Father, Sirius, Dumbledore, Ron, Hermione. Lupin was still missing; as was Snape… he forced himself to breath more slowly, as he thought of Snape. He’d tricked them, he must of. He changed sides in the last few minutes, once it became evident that Voldemort’s power was fading. He couldn’t have been as ‘noble’ as he pretended. He was a liar. They were on the same side now, but Harry would never forgive, certainly never forget.
Once his breathing was regulated, Harry opened his eyes, it was soon. The water of the lake was beginning to lap at his bare feet, as it did at this time of day, and the soft twittering of young birds began in chorus. He looked at the horizon, the opening between the two mountains, and a valley in the distance. So peaceful, he longed to join it, he longed to let all of the pain go.
It was starting. The light peaked over the valley, only a fraction, at first, but it grew, quickly becoming a disk of light, spilling out onto the lake, the colours swimming with each other, sparkling and glittering. The shades where soft and warm, melting into each other. The light reached the shore, turning the dull green vivid and vibrant, emerald blades. It reached his feet and crawled up his legs, warming them. He let out an involuntary shiver, as the stiffness of his limbs dissipated, and the tension of a cold lonely night thawed. The light was level with his eyes, he closed them, and the lake disappeared, the mountains, the castle behind him. He left them behind. The pink underside of his eyelids turned white, blinding white light. It allowed him to see. See the people that had forsaken him. Had given him the greatest love in the world then snatched it away. He could be with them. He could forgive them, in those few seconds, those seconds of the rising sun.
No more than a few minutes later, he got up and brushed himself down. Quickly glancing across the lake, a small smile at his lips, directed into its depths. He looked at the school. The frost of a January night coated its walls, giving it an icy coat. The sun glinted over it, a bright light reflecting off of the utmost tower, the astronomy tower. Students would be waking soon. Most of the younger ones had no idea what had been happening over the past few years. They knew that people were dying, and who was killing, but they didn’t understand. They couldn’t.
Harry yearned for that ignorance. That blissful ignorance.
He walked across the grounds, marvelling at the early blooming flowers their crystalline surfaces lustrous in the sunlight. The greenhouses were filled with wails of young mandrakes. Harry smiled; mandrakes. Flowers were everywhere. It was strange, it was too early. He chuckled, coldly, no humour in his laugh. So many things had happened too early. He found the path and followed it, his eyes tracking every small movement, ants amid cracks and crevices of the flagstones. The moss spilled over the sides, grass was overgrown and tousled. Soon he was at the gates. The large ornate gates that had offered him peace and protection. The gates that had welcomed him home.
Hogwarts. The place that had introduced him to a world that he loved, yet despised. For all of its beauty and magic, it stood on the same earth as the world he had grown up in. It was created on the same foundations. Behind splendour and wonder there lay corruption and death. Yet he had come to realise that it was the same. Everywhere. Where there was more than one person there was conflict. And he was trapped in the middle of it. He had only one release.
He had come here every morning, to sit by the tree and watch the sunrise. But, it would be a long time until he came here again. He had other things to do. He sighed to himself. Reached inside his mind and pushed the pain away. Temporarily. To keep it from interfering, if he pushed it aside it could not interfere. He knew, in his heart that one day, he would have to release it. He could make the world better, save lives. Maybe then he could forgive them. Forgive himself. If only he could do that. It would solve so many problems. The strain was starting to show, he became ever more detached, and acceptance and forgiveness became increasingly difficult. If only he could understand, if only he could feel again.
Hundreds of miles away, in a cold dark house in London, a man roared in agony as the form of a wolf began to protrude from his skin, ripping robes and mutating limbs. Another man recoiled, wand outstretched as he frantically tried to stop the beast from emerging. It was bursting free of its prison, howling deafeningly. The wolf was fully formed; it let out a howl and swung, once, twice, three times. Twenty-five stone of pure muscle clawed and beat the side of the man’s face, struggling to get at the door which the other was guarding. A beast and a man waging a battle. They howled in pain, in unison, the screeches echoing through the hallways and the corridors, resounding in the rooms, spilling into the world.
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That's chapter 1! There's a lot of variation in the way each chapter is written, so if you didn't like that, stick with me for a bit. . . and if you did, hopefully you'll like the rest!
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