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I need help. I have had depression since I was 11. I'm 14 1/2 now. It sucks. It feels like I have no heart. I haven't attempted suicide or cut myself or anything, but if feels like any minute now, I'm gonna pull off something like that. Harry Potter has gotten me THIS far, but it feels like Harry Potter has lost its magic touch with me. I don't get excited like I use to. The only way I can express the darkness I have in my black heart and talk about my twisted dark soul is through writing. I write poems mostly. I've been writing stories with Depression-like themes. Writing is my life.

If writing helps with the badness, continue writing! I'm not depressed, but writing is my emotional escape as well. I don't write poetry though, I'm actually writing a book (thanks to Ms. Rowling for the inspiration--and Spirited Away, of course, which gave me the idea).

I can't exactly help you with depression, as I've never experienced the medical diagnosis of it. But I can tell you that in sixth grade I was so depressed that I dreaded every coming day. I've never tried to hurt myself or commit suicide, but during the summer between sixth and seventh grade, I realized that I was truly miserable. I realized that it was because of my outlook on life, so I decided to try and be as optimistic as I could about everything. It was a lot of work, but I was so motivated... I became very optimistic and now I enjoy life a whole lot more.

I don't know if that helps you, but it's the best I've got.

plz don't commit suicide two of my best friends did it isn't the best choice. hey maybe you don't have to be depressed. just find the source of the depression and smit it.

Thanx 4 the advice guys, but it seems like I can't find a way to stop the numbness. Writing cures it, but only temporarly. JK Rowling is not only the reason why I write, she's the reason why I breathe. If it wasn't for Harry Potter and Dan's hotness, I probably wouldn't be typing this. It's weird, I don't look like I have a Depression problem. I don't wear black and listen to stuff with suicidal lyrics. But I guess looks can be decieving then. I listen to Evanesense and read Edgar Allen Poe and watch horror films. I cry, but silent tears. I yell, but they're silent screams. I sometimes wish i was dead. I sometimes wonder if I wasn't here, would anything be the same? I said something to my mom abut it and we can't afford to go to get help, but I also think she doesn't believe me. maybe she can't accept the fact that her own daughter has a problem.

Are there places you can call for help? We have Kids Helpline in Australia but I don't know if you have it over there. I had mild depression in 2001 but then I started drawing and talking to people and it kind of subsided, it pops up every now and then but not as often. I don't know what happens to fully depressed people but I know my little bit was enough to make me hate life. All I can say is talk to someone, someone you don't know, like a school counsellor or something, they won't judge you like a person you know can. And get help, write to places that help out people with depression or other help groups and explain your situation, they might help you. And remember if you ever feeling down there are a lovely bunch of people here that will be glad to talk to you. You're not alone, we are here for you!

Thanx, but I've tried talking to people, but it seems to get worse. And there is no way that I can get help.

hey. please please please don't commit suicide! i know exactly how you feel. i've been in the same place as you. even though it seems life gets worse, it'll get better. there are people who love you and need you. i'm always here if you need someone to talk to. feel free to private message me anytime you want. please don't do anything in the meantime. we need ya here!

lovin HP most of us watch horror films and read edgar allen poe, what we need to figure out is why are you depressed.!

well, life is horrible. That is something I will always remember. I'm not gonna comit suicide. Don't go overboard on me now. I'm not THAT depressed.

what about life is so horrible. Hp is good, the sun is nice, the beach is cool, writing is even better, maybe if you finbd something to do you woun't be depressed

hey! i hope that you get over your depression! do things that make you happy and do things that are exciting. keep yourself busy!!

I'm not much of a beach person. I enjoy writting a lot. But my work is really depressing. Like me. Sometimes. I'm not depressed 24/7. i can be crazy sometimes.

still what about life do you find depressing?

Everything's depressing to me. War, violence, fighting, drugs, everything. It's kinda hard to explain in words.

Ah. Perhaps you can communicate with me.

I too, am somewhat suicidal. I've been to the counselor's office twice for writing about self-abuse. Writing gets it all out. And if something at home is depressing you, you should tell one of your parents. I was extremely doubtful of speaking to my mother about this topic, but after I let her know, it got better.

If you want to write, and if writing makes you feel better, then you should write. And something else may help: mowing the lawn. It's crazy I know, but one day when I was really on the line of self-abuse, I ran outside and mowed the lawn. Since you can't cut yourself, go cut the grass.

And just let go and relax for a few days. You'll feel better. I guarantee it.

Edit: Wow......you're practically me. I don't wear all black, and I'm happy on the outside. I wonder what everything would be like without me. My own mother was incredulous when I told her.

If you KNOW what you're depressed about, then everything will become easier.

I would cut the lawn but since I live in an apartment complex, I CAN'T really do that. It's really hard to find a cure for me. To people, words on a piece of pper written by someone can mean absolutely nothing, but to whoever wrote them, they can mean a lot more than just a bunch of words on paper. There could be a meaning behind those words that is really hard to see at first, but once you read those words over and over again, you realize that the words are actually cries of help from someone who wants to die.

Come now darling, check your PM's. I hope it helps.

I wrote a poem that best describes my depression.

Darkness fills my life everyday
But why it does, I'll never say.
No one will believe me or the pain I go through.
No one has an idea, not a clue.

Darkness is in my mind and in my sight
Everyhting seems to be as dark as night
I know I'm not blind, but I can't see the light
I'll never know if everything will be alright

Darkness is in my veins, my skin, my nails, and in my hair
No one believes me, it's just not fair
I'm not gonna do anything crazy, like cause pain or suicide
I just want to be left alone, locked away inside

Darkness is in what i read and write
It's so dark, there is no light
No light to guide me through the dark and despair
Now I know life isn't fair

Darkness is all around me everywhere I see
It's everywhere I go, from the city to the see
No one will understand how I feel, from the outskirts to the shore
No one will never-nevermore

Darkness goes through me everyday
Every night, in me , it'll stay
Deep in the shadows of my cold heart
There's a pain inside tearing me apart

Darkness will stay with me untill the day I die
And deep in the shasow where I'l say good-bye

"And my soul from outside that shadow that lies floating on the floor
Shall be lifted....NEVERMORE!"

the last 2 lines are the last 2 lines of The Raven by Edgar Allen Poe.

Get it off your chest, write it in an email and send it to someone, or write it in your diary. Putting all your feelings onto paper does help in the short run but you need something more long lasting. You said that war, drugs, violence and fighting make you depressed, as it does to alot of us but you've got to remember that you have people that love you. Not just at home but everywhere! Life can be beautiful if you see it for it's wonderful things. Like family, friends, pets, and anything else that you love. Try not to focus on the bad things happening to this world because in the end it will all cease, it may not seem like there's light at the end of the tunnel but it's there, you just have to look for it. And as Mahwish, or NastyShort said find out what is making you so depressed, I know you said war and those things but it's got to be something else. Figure out what it is and you can find a way to treat it. If you want to talk to someone about things that are happening in your life then I'm sure there a tonne or people here who would love to help, myself included. And try to smile every day, because smiling can make you happy and when your happy you'll feel better.

I don't mean to be harsh or anything, but there is no reason to be depressed and thats also not a good thing for soem at your age to have. with all the hormons flooding through you, just not a good combo, keep busy write a story, not one that is "a cry for help" write your feelings in a diary write the bad stuff beside the good stuff and compare it.

Thanx 2 everyone. I'm actually writting a story that deals with depression. It helps a little bit. I don't really know how to write happy. i guess I can never really be happy. Not REALLY happy. Siriusblack, you wern't sounding harsh. You're just telling your opinion about the subject

Hehe, I'm not capable of writing happy either. I had to write a Christmas story once, and it was CHEEZY. Got an A though.....and then I had to write another paper on "my trip to Brasilia, Brazil." It's was cheezy to the max, but hey, I got an A. So if you're ever forced to write a happy story, just think CHEEZY!

LOL. I can try to write cheesy, but it sounds knid of weird. I'll give it a shot.

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Thanx 2 everyone. I'm actually writting a story that deals with depression. It helps a little bit. I don't really know how to write happy. i guess I can never really be happy. Not REALLY happy. Siriusblack, you wern't sounding harsh. You're just telling your opinion about the subject

Just remember there is always a solution, you just have to search for it.

Thanx, Siriusblack! I know I'm not gonna kill myself. I learned in school that just because you're really depressed, doesn't mean you should kill yourself or harm your body in any way. I'm not Frankie from The Real World:San Diego. i'm not a self-muliator(I think that's how you spell that). After all, suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I'm gonna write a book about that. I'm gonna somehow make that in to a story. I'm not sure how I'm gonna do that yet. I still need to figure it out.

thats great! good luck with your book!! and remember, stay happy!!

Thanx, dansgurl01. I'm actually writing more than one book. I'm writing a book about friendship, a book about tragedy, a book that deals with depression, and a book about how war is competely pointless. I've written 2 books already. They're part of a 4-book series. The first one's PSYCHOTIC and the 2nd one's called PSYCHOTIC 2: The Killing's Continue. The 3rd one will be called PSYCHOTIC 3: Halloween Terror. I'm not sure what the 4th one will be called yet.

You know, it's people like the ones on here that gives me hope for the human race! In a world full of crap there are many great people who do great things! I'm proud to be part of this forum!

don't feel bad about it. I know people who have been depressed and it helped them when they talked to their friends and adults and even the person that they liked helped them.


write it down in a diary or even send a private message to someone and see if they can help you.

I know how you feel...I've suffered depression too and I still do... But life is complicated...and I think that it will be better soon..and you'll never know! That's probably why I live now...because I couldn't commit suicide because then I would never know if something really good was going to happen to me! I also think the only thing that's keeping me her alive is Harry Potter and other movies! After the Harry Potter movies have been made, and after the books have been released..I don't know what to do... But I'm sure something good will happen then for both of us :wink:

Lovin' HP...I don't know what to say excpet that I am sending you positive thoughts and energy. I can't say that I know what you are going through, but if I can help in any way, even if it's just on here. let me know! You are not alone....although it may feel that way.

And your poem was beautifully written...it made me cry, just thinking of your pain...

(((((hugs)))))

[quote]I know how you feel...I've suffered depression too and I still do... But life is complicated...and I think that it will be better soon..and you'll never know! That's probably why I live now...because I couldn't commit suicide because then I would never know if something really good was going to happen to me! I also think the only thing that's keeping me her alive is Harry Potter and other movies! After the Harry Potter movies have been made, and after the books have been released..I don't know what to do... But I'm sure something good will happen then for both of us :wink:[/quote]

I'm glad you're here with us...see, something good did happen...you came here and that's way good for us!!!!

If anyone is still following this topic, I just want to let you all know that I have severe depression. I talked to my mom about it and she said that the insurance is really screwed up. So I won't be able to get help anytime soon. But my mom is gonna get me help.

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If anyone is still following this topic, I just want to let you all know that I have severe depression. I talked to my mom about it and she said that the insurance is really screwed up. So I won't be able to get help anytime soon. But my mom is gonna get me help.

You know I am sweetie!! I can't imagine that anyplace would turn you down because of an insurance mix-up...there has to be help out there for you somewhere! I know there is!! Just try to be patient and I know that you can find the help you need!!!

((((hugs))))

Actually, I just saw this, started reading it and decided to say a few choice words. But first:

i started to read this i wanted to say i also got also got depress but by school, family and even work in my 8th grade year (which was last year)i didn't dress in all black but in my 7th grade i started to dress like a punk but that is not all black. finally one day i cracked up around last years winter break i told one of my friends and her request was to cut myself i did it and it felt really good til one day one of my friend (who god i thank for) she saw me cutting myself in p.e and she talked to me about i told her i was depress with my life so she didn't say to keep cutting myself(or in her words hurting myself) she took me to a counselor she came to my first meeting and all of them till i stop and i finally told my parents she was there and told them i already went to counseling so they didnt need to worry to my suprise my parents didn't get mad with me but where proud i did something responsible like going to get help. i told my friend who told me to cut myself that to stop cutting to she got mad but came back and told me she needed help she is still in counseling but already stop.so when i get depress sometimes i listen to music i write and read and even sing and i also go to the web to talk about my problems with my friends( which helps loads )i think that you should tell a friend talk to her about your problems and they ccan tottaly help but only if you want to you don't have to but i helped me even if your case is way different but what are friends for i say

Do you know what makes you happy?

If it's Harry Potter, then you should go out, think of no one else but yourself, and do stuff related to Harry Potter. Just take a day off for doing what you want to do, and only do it for yourself.

Does fresh air make you happy? Then you should go outside and run around where you live. Or take a walk early in the morning (beware of muggers!). Just do stuff that makes you happy.

depression is usually nothing for some teens, because of hormones and phermones. BUT there are truly some things that we do feel really sad about.

i'm not gonna say that i know exactly how you feel because i dont. but it's close to it. i've been in deep depressions before and here's some stuff i just want to say.

crying helps a lot (for me at least) but it's very hard for me to do that lately.

my mother refuses to believe i have depression. she always thinks i'm just overreacting or something.

even the most saddest person in the world could wear pink. i used to wear mostly black, but because i liked the color, not because i was depressed i was supposed to wear it. AND i used to try to dress punk (with all the chains on pants, lacey hand gloves without covering fingers, wearing spikey stuff, going to hot topic, i even tried listening to some punk rock) but none of that stuff helps. it just makes you feel worse sometimes. try to wear something that feels comfortable or something that makes you feel good about yourself.

count your blessings. be glad that you have at least one person who loves you, be glad you have a home, be glad that you have friends, all of that. if you are going to kill yourself one day (i'm not saying you're going to, but just in case) that's just running away from your problems. ALSO, what will happen to to your friends and family? it'll be hard for them to accept the fact that someone they really loved is gone. also count the things that you're gonna look forward to, like the next harry potter books and movies. other events that you'll love are bound to pop up somewhere during life.

hey at least you have something that you can do to vent. i'm jealous that you can use writing to express your feelings and take some sadness out even if it is for a short time. (i take bike rides to take my mind off of things, plus i love the feeling of wind blowing against you. but my bike is broken, so now i need to find a new way =\ but try it, it might help!)

at least you're not bottling up your feelings, or else that can make things worse.

things are quite corrupted arent they? war, poverty, everything...it does make one very sad. but it's not like people are not trying to stop all of this. people try to raise money to help out these needy families. there are at least some politicians that will try to compromise with other countries to stop all the violence.

there is no such person that has no heart. you must be passionate about something (writing for you). and you have heart to care about humanity. you have a soul. soul-less beings doesnt have any feelings whatsoever, but you're not soul-less at all. you have feelings.

if your mom doesnt understand why you would be depressed, or wont accept the fact that you are, you can always talk to friends, or people in this forum. talking does help, and there are always people who are there to help you. we dont know exactly how you feel, but the basic concept is the same. we're very upset, and we just want to stop the pain. (but suicide is not the answer)

when i wake up, i also dread...but i always believe that life will get better some day. pandora might have opened the box where everything bad comes out, but there was hope. life will get better someday. until that day comes, hold on to whatever you hold dear to, and hope.

i really do hope you feel better. just remember you're not alone.

I'm so happy that you're getting help and to answer your question, it simply broke the skin and I still have a mark all the way from like 3 years ago.

Like I said, I'm so happy you'll be getting help and that you can find refuge in writing. By the way, don't feel bad, I'll pretend that Rupert is sitting next to me and I'll have a full conversation with him. Basically the same thing that you do, I guess.

<3s to Lovin'HP and everyone else.

xoxoxoxoxooxoxoxo

Everyone, great news: I'm getting help! I'll take you through everything: from when I first go to the doctor to when I'm officially better. Remember, noboy cam make you happy.

Congratualations, Lovin' HP! I hope your treatment goes well and that you can reach a full recovery. If you need anything, we're here for you!

<3s to Lovin' HP and everyone else.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

YAY!!! *sets out a celebration cake for everyone to eat*

I hope it all goes well.

...Just read through most of this thread.

Let me first just say, HP Lovin' I'm glad you're able to get help! I'm sure it will make a big difference.

When I was in high school, a girl who was a few years older than me committed suicide. I didn't know her, but the day the school was told that she had died was terrible for everyone. It was as though everyone who knew her had been hit with a disease. One quarter of the school seemed terribly quiet, sad, and unable to understand why she did it. One thing I learned is that suicide is probably the easy way for a person to solve their problems, but it hurts so many, many people: everyone who knew them, teachers, classmates, friends, family.

Depression is a very complicated thing, I'm sure. And I know it must seem very trite for someone to tell you to "just cheer up". But I think a lot of people who posted in this forum got it right; focus on the good things in your life. Any person you love, or thing you love doing. If writing helps, then write, write, write! (and you said you have trouble writing happy things....if find if i'm in a bad mood, watching a funny movie or tv show helps. Laughter may not always be the best medicine, but it's pretty darn good!). When you do figure out what's wrong, work towards making it better, and always make sure you have other people (like your mom, for instance) to back you up.

This thread is one of the reasons why HP fans are so cool. We're such a great little community...we come together to help each other out!

HP Lovin, good luck and all the best!!

i reccommend strawberry cheesecake! *drools*

i'm so happy that you're getting help with your depression. but it sounds like you're cheerful already anyway, i wish you the best of luck, and i hope you feel better really really soon.

*throws a slice at Lovin' HP* Tee hee, hope it didn't hit that hard. ^___^

Cheesecake is gooooood......*drool*

On a side note, did you ever try excercising while you were in your depression? Because in the words or Elle Woods from "Legally Blonde":

"Excercise gives you endorphants. Endorphants make you happy. Happy people just don't kill their husbands."